I slept the entire fucking day
(Or how to deal with feelings of failure)
Alright, at the time of writing this is 10:41PM and I just left my bed.
Truth be told, I woke up at around 4 or 5 P.M but I didn't want to leave my bed because I didn't think there was any point in doing so. It was already late. I already wasted my entire time, there's no reason to leave bed now is it?
I didn't even felt like eating, and I guess my boyfriend told my dad because he arrived home earlier than usual.
I lowkey feel like I'm constantly being watched.
Anyway, is for my own good or something, I guess? Back on topic.
I deal with these feelings a lot. About how there's really no point in doing anything. About how nothing matters. Hell, I kept feeling like that even after writing this thing. And, truth be told, I was waiting to come up with something inspiring as I write this... but I can't think of anything besides this which honestly it's my entire fucking mood.
On the other hand, I woke up alive and I'm going to make it everyone's fucking problem.
Also, apparently la alerta sísmica went off in Mexico City and I didn't hear shit. But it's fine, there was no actual earthquake.*Suena la #AlertaSismica*
— Benji Azul 🇫🇷 (@Azulismo_) April 4, 2023
La raza de CDMX en corto:#Temblor #Sismo pic.twitter.com/uiqgPlwFTl