What I've been up to
2025, August 14th.Hello, everyone! I can't remember when was the last time I wrote here. I wish I could say I have LOTS of things to share, but that's not the case.
Look, I'm not going to pretend I was fine and living my best life. I wasn't, and I'm not. A lot of the time is hard to get out of bed and take care oneself, let alone be a productive member of society.
But today is different. First, I realised I was feeling horrible because of my period. So I'm feeling better today!
Second, I finally made the random picker program I always wanted to do. It seems to work. And it syncs with my Kanban board in Obsidian! So I'm double happy. Most of the program is held together by ChatGPT, however, so I'm not going to take any credit for that.
I might publish the repo someday, but if I could do it with ChatGPT, anyone can. There's no science to telling an LLM what you want to do and get it done. But at least I can be more organized. No more choice fatigue! That should help me to feel less overwhelmed. Here's what my little program can do:
- Save and load a list of tasks
- Each task has a different weight
- Give each task a tag
- Each tag has a different cooldown
- Picks at random, taking in mind the weight
- You can mark it as done or skip it
- If you skip it, the weight of that task will be higher, giving it a higher chance to be picked again
- It syncs with your Obsidian Kanban board in semi-real time*
* I can't figure out how to make it so the changes you see in Obsidian, you see them INSTANTLY in the program too. - Prevents tasks from being duplicated in different boards.*
I forgot to prevent this in the first place and had a couple tasks duplicated every time the program started - You can either add new tasks on the program or directly on a Kanban board
I'm also trying to learn how to make this site a proper, nice website. I already like it a lot, but having a nicer index could be good. Making things easier to navigate is never a bad thing.
I think I already mentioned I use this website as a sort-of playground to learn HTML. That doesn't mean I don't like this place. I, in fact, like it a lot! And have a lot of fun thinking and brainstorming what to put here. I'd love to give it more functionality! But I can't think about what. A Newsletter? No, thank you. A way to put my mods to download here directly? I don't know how safe it is. I guess that depends on Neocities, but I know the bare basics of cybersecurity. I want to get into that someday.
I also learned how to mod The Sims 4. I have an entire page dedicated to how to do it yourself, if you're interested. You can find my tutorials/walkthroughs here. I'm not good at teaching, but writing those and documenting my journey is a lot of fun. Is one of the few things that brings me joy lately.
I'm screwing up in school. That incident fucked me up real good. I can't do homework or check the school's website without bursting into tears and struggling to breathe. The doctors tell me to take it easy and trust in my meds. I got them adjusted recently, and I'm going to the psychiatrist again soon. I wonder if they'll be adjusted again.
I haven't drawn much in months. I don't know what it is about my new tablet that scares me that much. But I'm working on that. I doodle from time to time. Nothing I'm rushing to share, though. Last time I tried to do an art stream, I was extremely anxious and I hated every second of it.
I've been thinking that, maybe, I'm terrified of being seen. Which is extra stupid because all of my hobbies eventually lead to people turning glances. I don't care if anyone reads it, but if anyone reads this and asks me how I'm doing? Oh, the horror. What should I do?
I wanted to end this in a happier note, but I can't bring myself to lie. Just know that I'm doing better than yesterday. Thank you for reading me. Don't mention this to me.
-Jim.